Sunday, 29 July 2012

Lyrics of my Heart - 2

One step close

A very good … depends on what time you are reading. Hey no points for guessing where I am.  Of course on the way to my first joining, a new place, new faces, new climate ... blaa blaa blaa. When you will be reading this, probably I will be in front of my BOSS whirling around his chair. But right now I am inside AC first class enjoying the IRCTC’s hot coffee and some biscuits. And still with my past memories haunting me. But trying my best to bring complete agility inside… J

Last post I had urged about a question at the bottom. The last line of my previous post was “now that I have bagged two jobs in my campus, but still a question arises.”

The question is now which should I go for. Two new roads ahead of me with what destination, I don’t know. But I have to make a choice. I have to choose something you know. And I can’t hit the bushes also. Probably many of you would now say that “go ask your seniors, do some research and etc, why asking some rubbish here”. Of course it is a good start but guys just think out, can you choose between a “PANEER KADAI” and “SAHI PANEER” kept before you with so ease. Hey but subject to the condition that you have never tasted it before. You can't trust someone here unless you taste both. From far everything looks good. You get the real insight when you go near it, when you yourself live it.

However I have decided. And I pray to Almighty GOD to bless me on my decision. Anyway the confusion arising in these situations has its source in greed of wanting better and jealously. Of course one will always go for better but nothing is perfect on this earth. A moon has a bright and a dark side both. When you have more than one option you become so confused, but think one who has only one option doesn’t care much. He seems to be so happy that you yourself become jealous sometimes looking at him. I am telling these because I have experienced these times. And I must tell you confronting these situations become so much difficult that sometimes you wish you also had one option. But with two options in you both hands you don’t realize that you are in a better situation.

I have taken my path but still not satisfied with it. I still doubt whether I have taken the right decision or not. Sometimes I doubt myself also on seeing others success. Sometimes I also think that how good it would have been if I had been there instead of her/him. But then I think perhaps Almighty has this in store for me.

So still I ask this question to myself how and what to decide when you have two options ahead of you …… With some discontent in my heart and some disappointment in actions I look forward to my new journey from here on.

Eagerly waiting to your comments and feedbacks. You can also reach me at

So meet you next SUNDAY with my one more exciting first week experience of corporate life. Until then enjoy your August monsoon and I will cut my cake. Stay happy. Stay healthy.

Sunday, 22 July 2012

Lyrics of my Heart - 1

One step back before my first step into corporate world 

Hi to all … guys and gals… my first blog. LOL.. Let me first open up myself to you all. I am a 22 years old guy. You see, I completed my engineering (everybody’s doing this yaar :P) this year from a well known reputed institute in India. Hey, I don’t want to talk about exactly which institute right now right here. Let it be somewhere in the bushes. We’ll pull it out later. 

So, this blogging just accidentally came up to my mind few nights before. I see a lot of people blog everyday about something new and some I find the same old stuff. Some smell genuine while some seems to be a repeat. But then I think why don’t we pop up something related to our own lives. That will be 100 % true and interesting to hear.

That’s why here I am… to open the book of my life to you all. Each and every coming SUNDAY, I will be right here to talk something new of my past and future coming days with you. Let’s begin then----
A year back………Still cherishing those memories when I was with my “BEST BUDDIES” of engineering  journey. Of course I am talking about when I was in my final year of engineering. What a start to the year we guys had. But now I still can’t believe that it’s all over. It’s like all completed at a sudden. A pain inside that can’t be gestured to anyone.

Hey guys!  C’mon…Look...I don’t want you to hear my past and make you pull you hairs out. I know many of us have come through this way. It’s nothing new. But the new is a question. A question that every year a guy must have asked to himself “Why this final year is so memorable?”. Out of 4 years why do we remember the last one when in every field the first one is so important? Nobody cares for the last.

I don’t think that these last days are any different from others. They are the same with 24 hours only. But what really brings us close is the feel of loneliness waiting ahead of us. It’s not because we’ll miss them rather because we’ll miss there company.  It’s a kind of fear of arriving next between some new faces and searching for any recognizable face. Where everybody will be a colleague but not a friend. A loneliness of unable to share your “insides” to someone. Don’t you guys think so?

But then I think one can’t give a good company to someone unless he is close to him. One will not feel lonely unless he is separated from some close ones. After all we talk “our things” with someone close only. So, is this closeness makes these last days memorable. Or it’s just an overflow of emotions unknowingly.

Now this probably seems like a debatable topic. Instantaneously at this point I am recalling my GD rounds during placement seasons. Probably here also I would admit that I prefer my “BEST BUDDIES” for a GD…:D :D. You guys could beat me in this topic though I never really have ever lost points in any debate.

It was April 15 evening 7:00 P.M when I probably bided my final good bye to me beloved ones. Till then I hadn’t even shedded a single tear. 30 minutes later, waiting for my train--the realization of “I am not going to hear any of their voices near my room “made me cry incessantly. It was the perfect 4th time when I had cried out so much in my life till now. When is the other 3 times then? At once then I questioned myself, is it worth to shed my precious tears for? I am still trying to get the answer out of my cells….

Now I have bagged two jobs in my campus. A few days left before my new life in corporate world. A prosperous life ahead but still then a question arises…………………..

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Until then enjoy your week and make yourself proud.